Friday, February 18, 2005
love isnt the thing for me..
well love isnt a thing for me..really..
in a period of 2 months i got myself into the same kind of situation..both the gals i liked said we could only be friends..both times i been so sad..well..maybe sad is not the word to use..just heartbroken..just disappointed..it is just me..its just another ONE-SIDED LOVE from me..
2nd time in this year that my heart cried..and its only feb..nearing march..i think i really dun haf any luck in love..maybe love is really not for a guy like me..the more times i tried the more i become afraid of..i dunno what this feeling of being scared signify..maybe the person meant much to me.. i dunno..
i just have to blame myself for falling for gals so easily..i just my fault..i should not show my love and my feelings so quickly..i am really dumb..now i have to remind myself not to fall for gals so easily..and i dunno whether i could make it..
maybe the problem is just with me..i am simply not good enough for anyone..simply just not good enough for anyone..NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE..
just disappointed and sad..love isnt the thing for me..
Posted at 2/18/2005 6:54:24 pm by junwei
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Monday, February 14, 2005
today is v day..today is flower frenzy day in tpjc..
real funny..today woke up super early..cos what..scared the tulip i buy will die..so rush to sch early in the morning..cos i ordered another daisy..but thought the daisy abit not good lar.change tulip..den tulip no wrapping lar..so go sch perform transplant operation for the flowers..den ta da..the tulip got wrapping..so funny..left the daisy without wrapping except for a ribbon tied to it..send the tulip out for delivery..wah dey nvr write the message..lol..kan cheong liao..went ard shouting for the paper to write.ask huiyun help me write..my handwriting in the morning not nice de..blur blur mah..den ask benita help me deliver..oh den rushing abt for flag raising..cos no one there..haha..come sch awhile the whole shirt like want to wet liao..sweat lor..
den later..gp..all siao de..my class flower frenzy...haha..keep using excuses to go toilet go take notes to do wad..buy flower..haha..so funny..lucky mrs sukvinder nice teacher..can tolerate our nonsense..thanx cher..haha
after that wah realise that so many ppl haben receive the roses..dunno why jc1 so toopid..lol..why hog e roses..lol..den i gave out those haben deliver to those who come ask for it..den later do replacement work for them..stunned by the delivery system we had..super stunned..flower frenzy..haha..
now i know flowers got meaning de..actually i looked them up..
tulips: declaration of love..
roses: 3 roses is i love u..9 roses is i love u forever..i dunno what is 7 roses de cant remember..
daisy: loyalty..
sunflower: cheerfulness..
and i wunder why we even ordered white roses..i thot we din..its only red pink and champange..why got white..white for dead ppl de lor..no wunder nobody wants..haha..
flower frenzy...
Posted at 2/14/2005 8:15:54 pm by junwei
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Thursday, February 10, 2005
2 days of CNY so sian lor..and so tiring..haf ot run so many places lar..cos both my mom and dad e smallest in their families..go here go there then go relatives house either stone or watch tv..really got nothing to do..and all my cousins..different age from me..not even close lar the age gap..den sian man..no one to talk..everytime play my handphone til batt flat lor..super sian man..and too bad lar..i love to collect ang pow lar..but v little money lor..if everyone can X 2 the ang pow money will be enuff..cos i want to buy alot of thngs..and got ppl's bdae coming up all dat..and v day leh..sian boh..and see my blog..e wish list so long..dunno when will fulfill all lar..and sian lor..tmr got lessons..sian man..day 2 of CNY must do homework..study..will lose money lor..shu shu shu..du shu..haha..lucky nvr gamble..cos i dun like to gamble w money..tis will piss me off oso..
yeah finally tmr can see my frens again..sian man 2 days nvr see miss them..cos really sian mah..frens same age..got entertainment at least..and i miss that particular sum1 lar..but sian lar..i oso confused myself le..so sian..
oh ya so scary lor..this 2 weeks will anyhow nosebleed lor..duno why oso..must go wash use tissue so mafan..rub ur nose abit den bleed liao..die le lar..sian..
Posted at 2/10/2005 7:57:58 pm by junwei
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
the week is getting more sian man..dunno why suddenly feel so sian oso lor..since tuesday been like that..the feeling of sian-ess..so sian de..started reading the bible..wow so interesting lor..i am starting to believe in it..not bad leh..at least for a noob like me i managed to understand the bible lor..budden not a lot though..nvr mind read up a few more den can liao..i suddenly miss mugging alot..cos last 2 weeks like nvr study alot lor..den all CNY fault lar..me into CNY mood le lar..waiting to collect ang pow lor..where can concentrate man..oso after CNY is vday week..will be even more sian..u all shld guess/know why lar..
yesterday got a super long meeting man..talk for so many things..just hope that wad we say will put into wad we shld do lar..if not no point hafing such meetings..total waste of time if nothing done to change..yesterday bth man..the f word keep coming out..bth lor..want to talk den keep got ppl interupt de..let me finish mah and think abt wad i said wad..talking abt giving chances..in reality like this..how many chances will u get..how many chances will others give u..i can honestly tell u lar..one chance..and at the most two lor..its best to make full use of the chance..dun tell me next time u go outside work u will get so many chances for ur mistakes..no man..the boss gonna sack u lar..its owas the best that survive..so talking abt chance..i wun gif such a person man..see not point at all..
and sian man..why is my secret so easy let out de..thats is why i dun wan to tell anyone in the first place..cos tell le sure got ppl go tell others..which is damn irritating..there is a reason for keeping sumthing secret..and if the person tell u his secret..it means he trusted u enuff to be entrusted with e secret..and wads the point of a secret if others other den the appointed few shld know abt it..damn it lor..why i dun wan the secret to be out..cos there might be some consequences to it..some might be shock abt the secret..some might not liek the secret right..so dun say mah..why make everything so bad for everyone lar..go tell go guess..pls lar..dun be so sensitive lar guys..sumtimes its best if u dun guess too much..and sumtimes guess wrongly and still go anyhow tell ar..thats e worse of all lar..letting others know e wrong msg is even worse..even u guess right just keep quiet lar..why make life difficult for ppl when tpjc so hard to get warmed to..sumtimes its best to think simple lar..dun think so much..think think think..go study lar..damn it..
[edit] oso..sum ppl might guess what the secret is..and might just ask those who know the secret to confirm..after confirming they will know..so pls..even if u know..just keep mum..i dunnid advertisers lar..its not like a product which needs word-of-mouth advertising..keep mum damn it..
abit pissed off lar..paiseh..
Posted at 2/5/2005 3:38:50 pm by junwei
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005
saturday sunday monday tuesday
been long since i blogged le..cos nothing much happened anyway..
last saturday got a council bbq mah..went for it..cos i thot it might be a time for us to haf fun instead of being so business-like..den went there..kena tricked lor..sian..so sian de..went there only ate 3 crabsticks and 2 franks..damn it..$5 lor..den still haf to go for dinner with wilmond soon huat and jianyong at the food center there..the food there nice de..den went back around quite late oso..11 plus den leave east coast park lor..nearly missed bus home..lucky for me and wilmond..the last bus came..heng..we thought we need to take cab liao.so heng..sibeh heng..and saturday oso went for checkup at the SHC..damn it lor..now the doctors want to do so many test on me le..so irritated..me guinea pig like that lor..den super sian by these type of news..and..cheryl found out my secret..haha..she owas manage to find out de lor..damn..nvr mind u good..so i practically wasted my saturday lar..could haf done lots of revision lor..
sunday..specially cancelled tuition so i could do some study and do my homework..sacrificed wrongly liao..cos i finished wad i planned to do in the afternoon..if i had gone ahead with my tuition i wld know how to do DE le..not like now..haha..dumb lar me..
monday..monday was a long day..started with lecture which i cldnt understand..so heck lar..sat and sun revision again..den was more tutorial..den more tutorial..den dunno why that day so dehydrated like that keep drinking lots of water and wad..cause me want go toilet so many times..by the end of the last lesson econs..i already bth liao..want to sleep le..den go wash face liao..after sch..went to find marie at TM..cos gotta buy the smurf toopid bdae present mah..den found the perfect gift at the 4th floor of TM..its a smurfette..haha..later we went to the ntuc dere go shop for apples..we fussy de..dun wan usa apples..wan fuji apple cos we need only 3 apples mah..den got 2 xtra out le..so each one take one lar..so must buy nice nice to eat de..go choose those rosy rosy de..and i bought home the apples my mum say..shld buy got lots of lines de..haha...like i know..now u know why we need the 3 apples for?dunno ar?think harder..haha..den went back 3rd floor popular find wrapping paper..we budget mah..so the wrapping paper so ex..den use so little..so dun buy..den outside toys r us got the machine thing..marie 'ate' up my 50cents lor..cos she want to spin the little toy..haha so lucky she got wad she wanted..a winnie e pooh..see my 50cents so lucky..haha..after that went back sch to take my bag..go home liao..sleep le wake up do work..dunno how to do DE..so sian diao le..so go sleep again..dunno why like to sleep so much these few days..haha..think making up for lost time bah..lost too much time becos of this person lar..
today..today sch sian..got pe..run le tired le..go attend lessons..today quite pissed off with ppl..dunno why oso..pms lar..haha..den marie u good throw the smurfette to me ask me wrap..haha..i wrapped le..but very ugly leh..but thats not the point rite..haha..its the smurf and the 3 apples that do the talking..haha..better bring the card tmr hor..i wrap liao..keep delaying the appl sooner or later rot sia..aiya today got the meeting with council teachers..so tired liao still listen to stuff..which we haben even discuss properly and set wad we want..and wah..liek we superman lor..nvr mind..den soon huat yonathan and jennife was super lame during the meeting..keep laughing..haha lucky away from reynolds..if not sure tio kan..haha..aiya now super tired liao..did 1 DE qns..i know how to do 1 okay..sian..i think go for mrs koh remedial..den got tuition..better get my maths well lor..if not very bad to myself..go sleep liao..blog next time..
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Posted at 2/1/2005 10:08:59 pm by junwei
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Friday, January 28, 2005
today din go sch..cos go for my xray lor..my knee giving me problem..so go scan whether the bone got problem not..den the results so fast out liao..hmm spiking of the tablia plateau lar..den no bone cracks lar..no arthritis problem oso..so u know wad the doctor say..it might be muscle problem or ligament problem liao..or nerve problem..ahhh!!!so i haf to go make another visit to some stupid specialist lar..to see wads wrong..grr..so mafan..
today buy new phone..haha..wasnt the phone i wanted but its better than wad i wanted..its SE K508i..better than K500i and X300 lor..haha..today keep playing with the phone..den busy getting every1 contact into the phone..busy finding nice games and nice pictures..and of course having fun with my camera oso..taking picture of myself and my bunnies..hehe..stupid bunnies keep running so difficult to take..can take video oso..haha..so good..
today nvr go sch..think missed alot..my loss anyway..so gonna ask michelle wads there and wad homework to pass up next week..gonna spend my sunday usefully..go finish most of the homework and read up things..and see nvr go sch today means cant see my crush..lol..nvr mind..sian le..
tmr got to go SGH..see doctor..sian..wasted the whole day again..appointment at 11 am..and my bbq at 4 pm..sian lar..go out come back go out again..waste time..the time can be better used to do my homework and revision..ahh..why i this week so slack..i oso dunno why..lol..CNY mood..lame le..
next week must buck up liao..haha so slack this week..study ar study ar study ar....
Posted at 1/28/2005 11:01:50 pm by junwei
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
haha stupid marie keep asking me who is the new crush..den i dunwan say..haha..den keep asking..ask for so many clues..den gave her a few..so lets see if she clever enuff too guess..and eh u counting to ur bdae liao huh..so fast lor..haha kan cheong for ur 18th bdae huh..haha..eh is not i dun wan tell..i not prepared..besides i got PHOBIA lor..haha this type of things and wad happened to me lar u shld know made me disillusioned liao and not so wanting to try sumthing foolish..so haha either u guess or u wait..lol..
wah today i went thru sum av training..mr chang not bad lor.so nice..teach us..and i understand sum things liao..yeah..learning audi the controls liao..
and today duno wads wrong with fellow councillors..tink some quarrels broke out..i am not present so cldnt comment much..but really..we need to talks things straight and clear..and policticking is dangerous..dun try..it could go against u too..thats wad i feel..3 types of people in the council..the capable of leading and doing work..the not capable of leading but can do work..and those who cant lead and cant do work..wad category are u?sian..
Posted at 1/26/2005 10:03:43 pm by junwei
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
hmm..changed my blog layout..changed my profile section..added a music video..what this show..i am too free liao..haha
nice rite my blog?dunnid tell me nice lar..i oso know..haha..so plain yet nice..changed my profile section..got new things liao..all summarised up le..remove most of the pics..left only two..and i added a music video on the blog..cool le..got song to listen..will change everytime..this time round is senses fail's buried a lie..not bad..first time listening to it only..explore my blog k..so nice..so nice..haha..i am mad..and i v proud of myself for doing so much homework..i am done with my chem pract. skill a de..i am done with econs mcq..done with econs essay..done with trapezium rule tutorial..done with chem polymers tutorial..still got wad ar..oh gp reading log..haha..wah not bad le..den still got time go ubin cycle lor..haha aching liao lor..and sunburnt..summore got time go shop for cny clothes..only bought shoes and jeans so far..left shirts..gonna buy soon..haha..wah if i got weekend 3 days de i love it man..can do so much things..
hmm quite sad for my classmates who got retained or chose to retain..cos i know most of them quite well..liek deepika..my first indian fren which so fun to be with..still remember first time lecture sat beside her liao..dunnid listen lecture..keep on laughing lor so fun..den pauline..so nice gal..me kena her as angel she my angel oso lor..likes elephants..and she got a v funny childhood oso..last time sat outside council rm shared with us..so funny..so nice to be with..den nadirah..my pw member..so hardworking de..chose to retain..all the best..maybe she feels more time better foundation..taking geog oso..work hard..geog v easy to score de..den farah..my fellow councillor..she's a nice gal..nice temper and all..gonna miss her too..haiz..sch so evil..haiz..
searching for a new motivation in life..
Posted at 1/23/2005 9:44:06 pm by junwei
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Friday, January 21, 2005
today went cycling with 3 other frens at ubin..v long nvr go there le..changed so much..the changi jetty oso changed liao..so nice..except the boats..still bumboats..today the sea waas v rough..rougher den b4 lar..and the sea colour different de..sum parts were red..met them at changi for breakfast..ate nice food..hehe..den cycling time..rented bike for 8 bucks..ride all over ubin..i think i ride for a few km liao..and my legs are aching..and my butt hurts from sitting too long on the bike..ouch..den went to mainland after 5 hours of cycling..all of us kena sunburnt liao..all red liao..me v red..the skin so pain..but nvr mind..wanted to tan..but overtan..too much le lar..lunch oso at changi..ate chwee kuey..den after that bball time..play for 2 hours lor..den its time for dinner..food again..today all nice food..had fun..pocket oso burnt with a big hole..and self torture too..legs aching..butt hurting..and sprain my ankle again during bball..turn too fast..abit sprained..but can walk..dunno can run not..haben try..wah i am so tired liao..and body feels so hot..i need some cold..
hmm i dunno if i shld go try out sumthing new..cos i dunno if i am ready to try it out with sum1 else..esp after wad happened to me recently..lets think about i again..
Posted at 1/21/2005 10:09:40 pm by junwei
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Saturday, January 08, 2005
me and my luxurious cruise..
i am now stuck on a super luxurious cruise all by myself..the captain of the cruise had anchored the cruise in the middle of a big ocean and left without telling me..all alone on the cruise now with no idea how to steer the cruise and dont know how to swim..i am waiting for someone to come round and rescue me and return to the shore as i miss being on the shore..i been out in the sea for too long and getting sick of it..getting mentally and physically exhausted..i dont know who will come by and how long will it take for me to get ashore again..
today gonna rest well..really tired out by orientation and the things that had been going around..i quite enjoy o nite yesterday..although i was the stage manager..and stress out with all the last min things that we only know like minutes b4 the performance..but i somehow enjoy being stage manager..so fun..like this job..and yesterday at least for a few hours i could busy myself and my mind wasnt thinking of things..today gonna watch lots of tv shows to get my mind off things..still haben find a permanent solution to it..all these are temporary..
i need time to cool down and think again..think you oso need time for yourself..so gonna lie low but i dont know how long it is gonna take..
must thank marie for being my listening ear these few days and her effort of trying to make me happy lar..thanks for her concern too..thanks gal..hope everyone cld be like u ard me right now..
Posted at 1/8/2005 3:34:49 pm by junwei
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